All dressed up and no place to go.

I had  planned to spend the day in San Francisco looking at pretty pictures of beautiful women.  I had dressed, not up, exactly, but certainly more respectably than my regular schlubby self does.  Black corduroy slacks, a black v-neck sweater covered with a deep burgundy velvet shirt, jewelry, lipstick; in other words as  befits hanging around an art museum.* General business casual.  (I am having a bad hair day, but that seems to be the norm the past couple of weeks.  I desperately need to get my hair cut, something which I usually dislike getting done.)    The Rocket Scientist was going to take me up and we were going to lunch and then he was going to drop me off before heading to a weekend workshop further north.  I was going to take Caltrain back home, which I almost always enjoy. (I like riding trains.)

Life happens.  Specifically, defective radiators happen.  The radiator which we had installed in Vincent the sixteen-year-old black convertible a few months ago sprung a leak.  The good news is that it is still under warranty, the bad news is that the time it cost us to determined what was wrong and make alternate transportation arrangements precluded going up to the city.  Rats. We did have a nice lunch locally with the Not-So-Little Drummer Boy, who is home from college and whose company is almost always a delight, but it still is not the same thing as a museum trip that one has been planning for weeks.**

So I am sitting at home in front of my computer.  I feel like I should go out and do something this afternoon, just to make up for missing my museum outing. The house is pretty much clean, and even if it were not, I would want to change before doing housework.

Sigh. I hate having to figure out alternate plans.

*I am actually of the opinion that t-shirts and flip flops are okay for museums, as long as people are there and are really interested in the art. Enthusiasm covers a lot of sartorial sins in my book.
**I originally was supposed to go see this on my birthday, but I was ill and had to punt.

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Decisions, decisions.

Along with (spurious statistic alert!) probably 75% of the other mothers in America, I received flowers for Mother’s Day.  The florist did a superb job of creating a bouquet to last for days, mixing roses which were in full bloom with not-quite-opened irises and completely closed stargazer lilies. The roses were lovely, and the irises were quite pretty when they opened, but the lilies are spectacular. They’re huge and beautiful and incredibly perfumed.

That last is a problem.  Strong fragrances — even natural ones, such as star jasmine or, in this case, lilies — can be migraine triggers for me.  I have spent the past two days flirting with a headache.

So, you say, throw them out.  I should.  Most sane people would.  But I can’t seem to discard something so lovely.  The need to protect and nurture one’s physical self can sometimes conflict with the need to nurture one’s psyche, especially when the object which is so soul-satisfying is so very transient.

It’s such a dilemma.

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An occasional list of things I am grateful for.

For light rail trains with free WiFi.
For pub trivia.
For Veronica, my favorite bartender/waitress.
That Railfan found a date to the prom, and that they had a very nice time..
That The Red-Headed Menace’s AP is over so he can stop stressing about it.
That the Not-So-Little Drummer Boy is home for the summer.
For silly movie trailers that make me laugh.
For good friends who point me towards them.
For lemons.
For ice-cold watermelon.
For watermelon-mint salad dressed in balsamic vinegar and olive oil with feta cheese on top.
For baseball season.
For the Tampa Bay Rays.
For knitting.
For the St. Petersburg Times and PolitiFact.
For sunny days, even if they are too long.
For Monty Python and the Spanish Inquisition (theirs, not the real one).
For Netflix.
For Cadfael.
For Ken Burns.
For Jane Austen.
For J.K. Rowling.
For the teachers who taught me to read.
For iced tea.
For the right to vote.
For Cee Lo Green’s “F*** You.”
For Tony Bennett’s Duets II.
For Stardust.

That President Obama actually admitted that same-sex marriage was a good thing.

For nurses.
For Mother’s Day flowers with pink lilies that are just blooming.
For chocolate.
For other people.
For Company.
For the color of pine trees against a clear blue sky.
For caffeine, my drug of choice.
For search engines, which allow me to access my real drug of choice,  information.
For New York City, even if I do not get there but once a decade.
For San Francisco, even if I only go up there a couple of times a year (far too infrequently).
For Paris, even if I never get there again.  The idea of Paris, even.
For the Musee d’Orsay and the exhibit from there currently at the Palace of Fine Arts.

And, because I have to include these every time:
For the ocean.
For the color blue.
For my family, who with all their quirks and insecurities still rock.
For light.
For art.
For love, with its myriad complications and delights.
For life.

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Words of wisdom from tonight’s fortune cookie*

“If you want it — take it!”

Maybe I should try that sometimes.


*Da Sichuan Bistro, 3781 El Camino Real, Palo Alto, California,  roughly halfway between Oregon/Page Mill and Charleston/Arastradero.**  Comfy if pedestrian atmosphere, friendly waitstaff, good food. The General’s Chicken is great: sweet, but not syrupy or cloying, with heat, saltiness and acidity balancing out the sweetness. I also really like the sizzling steak on iron plate. The wonton dumpling in chili sauce is terrific, and taking the leftover chili oil sauce and drizzling it into your vegetarian hot and sour soup is trés yummy.  They have a good vegetarian menu, which means all the adults  in our house are happy with either eating there or getting takeout from there.  
** I hate intersections where streets change names.  The bistro is on the eastern (I think) side, a.k.a. the Oregon and Charleston side.  If you are familiar with the area, that last sentence makes sense.

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The Jedi way.

I have always thought that the process of creating Jedi laid out in the last three Star Wars movies (I always count them from release date) was far from ideal, bordering on child abuse. And now I think I can clearly articulate why.

I was in a discussion yesterday about mindfulness, and the concept of the rational mind v. the emotional mind v. wise mind (which is a combination of the two).  When the discussion turned to rational mind, the example was, as is usually the case, Star Trek’s Spock.  One of the participants in the discussion mentioned that she had little experience with Star Trek, that she was really a Star Wars person, and that there was no comparable person in that universe.  When I suggested Yoda, I was immediately shouted down. Yoda exemplified wise mine, everyone said.

No, he doesn’t.  And the Jedi ethos doesn’t either, going as far as to openly reject emotion.  A Jedi must not fear, a Jedi must not be angry, a Jedi must not care about other individuals except in any but the most abstract and generalized way.  The good of all rather than the good of individuals is what matters.  Children were taken from their homes and mothers at a very young age, an age when attachments to others are very important, so they can grow up without needing love. One of the reasons Yoda gets so exasperated with Luke is that he is so emotional.

This is extremely unhealthy. People need other people.  All healthy people will feel anger sometimes, and will  feel love sometimes; our brains are hard-wired that way. To take children and deliberately make them unhealthy emotionally is abusive.

So I stand by what I said: the only difference between a Vulcan and a Jedi is that Vulcans are born that way, and Jedi are made.

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The Wild Things mourn.

I often use Facebook to find things to write about. It has been an active week for my friends, and I have twenty-two open tabs with articles from everywhere – Cracked.com to the New York Times. I also have a post to write on Yoda, and a post to finish on gratitude (a list of fifty things minus the big fifteen I listed in my Meta-Gratitude post). I also want to write on a new thriller I am reading.
All of that has to wait.
Maurice Sendak has died.
I knew he was old. I knew he was in ill health. His frailty was obvious in the interview he did with Stephen Colbert earlier this year.
His brilliant wit was also well in evidence. I am so glad that Colbert gave us a chance to see the tamer of the Wild Things, the architect of the Night Kitchen.
I once gave a therapist who was leaving to go on maternity leave a copy of Where the Wild Things Are. I told her that every shrink’s kid needed a copy of this book. I was speaking tongue-in-cheek, of course. I didn’t really mean it.
I really think that everybody’s child needs a copy of it. No matter what their age.
Sendak was somewhat scornful of the devotion that Where the Wild Things Are has elicited. I tend to think that that was because he was never a parent.
WTWTA was my favorite children’s book. It still is. Partly it is what it seems to say: it conveys the “there are people who love you, there is a home for you” message in a way that is not cloying or seriously creepy. (As much as I adore Shel Silverstein’s poetry and songs, The Giving Tree is not a healthy book. Even more disturbing is The Runaway Bunny by Margaret Wise Brown, who also wrote Goodnight Moon.) More than that, the cadence of his prose was both simple and lyrical. It was elegantly straightforward.
In a world where your child may get hooked on a book and not want you to read anything else, reading Sendak’s beautiful prose and showing off his pictures that managed to be whimsical without being cutesy is a blessing. This is not true if you are stuck reading Are You My Mother? Even Fox in Sox and Horton Hears a Who pale after a while.
So here’s to you, Maurice.  At the risk of echoing a sentimentality which you would no doubt scorn, I hope that wherever your spirit is, a wild rumpus is going on.
You deserve no less.
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Letter I am not going to send.

Dear Mythbusters,

I understand you probably get a ton of letters from mothers complaining about the experiments you run, in that it gives their offspring ideas that, as much as you say “don’t try this at home,” they still do, resulting in broken crockery and messy landscaping. My sons, on the other hand, find things to experiment with all on their own.

I  want to thank you for the times when my offspring suggest working on replicating some bizarre idea they’ve seen on the Internet  that I am able to say, with a straight face, “Won’t work — Mythbusters already did that.”*

Most of the time I am even telling the truth.

Me

*That’s only when the issue is one of potential messiness. Safety is nonnegotiable. 

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Meta-gratitude.

I was looking through all my thanksgiving posts, to see what things occurred more than once.  I came up with a list of the things I am most frequently thankful for.  In no particular order:

The color blue.
My family.
Health insurance.
The Bill of Rights.
The ocean.
For Starbucks Venti Non-fat No-whip Specialty Mochas.
Stephen Sondheim.
Great Big Sea.
Good people.
The Internet.
Writing.
Good music.
Art.
Love.
Life.

I wonder if I should put them in a “Gratitude Hall of Fame” and leave them off future lists.

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Stardust is one of my favorite movies.  After seeing it for the goodness-knows-how-manyth time, I really want a Babylon candle.  Mucking around with a minivan just seems so inefficient, somehow.

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Must have had kids.

The Red-Headed Menace, working on a history assignment: “Hobbes said that man’s life in a state of nature was nasty, brutish, and short…. it makes me wonder what kind of a home life he had.”

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"We’re so geeky," moment deux.

I sent an email to my family, and the Red-Headed Menace responded in person, not telling me what I wanted to know, but criticizing the grammar of my email signature.

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The cause of yet another "My God, we’re so geeky" moment

This morning’s discussion centered on whether the house’s hot-water schema could be best analogized to riparian or diversionary water rights systems.

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Still waiting for Clarence.

In this post, I tried to identify fifty things that I could say were ways that I have made the world a better place.  I could only find 28.  I have been working on finishing this list lately. I can now add four:

29. I am a courteous driver who often lets people merge without hassle and who doesn’t respond when being cut off. I also don’t play my music too loud, except for a recent occurrence.

30. I have a nice smile.

31. I have done work for organizations which helped them keep their doors open, even if it was not helping their clients directly.

32. Along with the Rocket Scientist, through the Combined Federal Campaign, I annually give money to Habitat for Humanity, Second Harvest Food Bank, National Alliance for the Mentally Ill, and other charities.

Only 18 left to go.  This is hard.

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Gratitude posts.

As part of my recovering from my awful April — more accurately my awful mid-March to late April — I have decided that there were a lot of posts that I needed to look at from time to time to remind myself of all the blessings in my life.  For all the problems that exist out there in the world, it still is a beautiful place and well worth living in.  I think those of us who concentrate on wanting to fix things or change the status quo forget that at our peril.

This is a bookmark for my own purposes; there is nothing for other people in this. (That  might by said of the original posts as well, but then again, the blog exists for my own purposes.  One of those purposes is feeling that I am reaching other people, but that is not the only one.)

Looking back, I see a lot of repetition in some of these posts.  I am continually grateful for my family.  I should tell them this more often. I should write Stephen Sondheim an actual fan letter, as he is not getting any younger.  I can’t tell the ocean or the color blue how much I love them, though.

Thanksgiving, 2011
My beautiful world.
Calling Clarence the Angel… and Still waiting for Clarence.
Proper Font Usage.
Another list of fifty things.
Ten things I’ve learned.
Adventuring.
Food for the heart.
And the Angels in the Architecture Danced…
Eleven for ’11
Pat’s Greatest Hits?
Hands.
Just a list of unrelated things…
Walking the Path: The Lessons of the Labyrinth
Small Graces.
Two more things about me…. (plus links)
Happy Thanksgiving.
A Stranger Shore.
[Edited to add: An occasional list of things I am grateful for.]

And, I want this list absent the rest of the post which spawned it:

Tell the people in your life how much you love them.

Hug your kids.

Hug your kids more.
Reach out to the friends you’ve lost track of.
Ask that really cool person from church/work/school/Facebook out to coffee.
Listen to the birds.
Watch the sunset every so often.
Go home early from the office now and again.
Explore off the beaten trail.
Overtip the waitress.
Find your passion.
Forgive other people.
Forgive yourself.
Smile.
Laugh.
Love.

And always follow the sign to the chinchilla races.

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Conversation

After a labored pun about Descartes and horses, I commented that my ability to make puns had come back.  For some reason, I started spontaneously making puns over the past week, something which I had not been doing in casual conversation for a while.

“I’m not sure that that is a feature,” said the Rocket Scientist.

Spoilsport.

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